so?

where are my comments, missy?! you know who you are. and who i am for that matter, hehe.

in other news...
i broke up with my boyfriend of almost 5 years a few weeks ago. i know it's supposed to be easier when you do the breaking, but i feel like an asshole and i can't stop doubting that i did the right thing.

then on the other hand i feel like i have to see this through this time (loooooong history of breaking and returning over and over again).

i hate feeling conflicted. being decisive would be so freeing i think.

sigh. sorry to be another lame blogger whining about their relationships, web. but what else do we really have in this life that matters on an immediate level?

i also feel weird feeling so sad when i've already found a "friend" locally supposedly to help distract me. he's super sweet, great really. and understanding. but he's not my boyfriend.

i miss my holding my ex-boyfriend's hand and rubbing my fingers over his calluses from work. what a strange thing to miss.

well, besides you i'm the only one who reads this so i am going to shamelessly vent/be sad until it passes on here. yay for public journals!